you made me cry.thank you.

i am angry.
yes i am angry and frustrated and not just because MJ died.

and im still laughing.laughing at how my life just has a despicable sense of timing.
i never sense it coming.and when it does,its all over me.
but the time factor never,ever vanishes.

you have been with me for two years now.maybe even more.
but when i wanted you to just vanish,why do you still stick to me like this.
Just when i thought i was being released of that heavy burden you decided to hang on.





you delayed.

you are my parasite.
you suck out all my confidence.
just like that.
just by being there.

you do nothing.you just watch me.
and you laugh to yourself.
you laugh at my insecurity.
you rejoice at my incapability.

you have reduced my laughter to a mere giggle.you know me inside out and that scares me.
and so i want you removed.
but you just won't budge would you?

you are stuck to me.
and when i look in the mirror, i see you.
beaming back at me.glowing,even.
laughing that you are still there.
i feel angry.
and sad.
i cried for you yesterday.even though i know you don't deserve any of that emotion.
you don't have any emotion.



because i'm the human.
you are just a parasite.
a piece of metal.


17 july 2009.
you will be gone.
i won't miss you.
or cry for you.




but maybe when i'm older i'll just thank you.
for making me cry yesterday.
i realised you do not matter at all.
goodbye.



























p.s- i was talking about my braces.