reasons to live.

so.
my earlier blogpost depressed some people.
and they have sworn they won't talk to me now.
i'd be stupid to believe them but then again they matter.
*points towards ramya and jo*

the day after writing the post i figured maybe i didn't want to die just yet.
the realisation was when i was at school.
here are some of the reasons i don't feel that way now:

1)i got integration ka three sums!!!
*jumps up and down*

after 3 months 5 days 4 hours 37 minutes 24 seconds i finally cracked a sum on my own.
major whoop man.
i think my brain is growing.



2)mom said she'll make chiken today.the roghenjosh one, which happens to be my favorite.


3)i'm going to flunk my first terminal but then again who won't.
and dad came up to me yesterday and he,yes HE told me not to take a lot of stress.
AND he said that even if i don't do well in boards its okay because ultimately im going into design.


and i already have a 93.57 in my 10th boards.


4)i think my life will change after 12th.
i wont have to derive anything.
integrate anything.
nothing.
just random sketching.
and i'll start my own line of customized shoes.
i'll sit at home,call up people,sip some mocha and paint converses.atleast till college begins.
now thats the life.
bliss.yes.



5)i and jyothi have planned out our lives.
we will get into a design college.
get out.
make a lot of money.
do a lot of stuff like mondo'ing and nose tapping.

And when we have made enough money we’ll buy a nice guy for ourself.
We might even give him a bonus for a foot massage:D

6) I have friends.
Great ones.
Ones who tap my nose and get hyper doing it.
Ones who tell me they aren’t talking to me and then come and ask me why I wrote that blogpost.
Ones who take out all the stuff out of my bag hoping they’ll find something interesting.
Ones who never message and yet manage to bother.

I live for them.


7)HUM JAB BADA HO JAYEGA NA ,TOH HUM APNE MARAD KE SAATH ‘SEXY THINGS’ KARENGA , AUR HUM APNA BALLS SCRATCH KARENGA.

HUM APNE MARAD KE LIYE NA ROTI BHI BANAYEGA AUR STRIP BHI KARENGA.

^don’t ask.


8)i figured that even though soumya and jo were right when they said that you don’t respond,you make me happy.talking to you makes me happy.
And I figured that I don’t need to search for a reason to be happy just to justify it.
^_^


9)aakriti’s cousin wants me to work for his design company.
Major shwoop man.XP
Even though I doubt he’ll take it seriously.
And a guy wants to feature my artwork on his website.
Even though all this might not work out eventually, for the moment its good.


10)these days podar plays weird songs during the lunch break via the public address system
And we all dance.
Yeah I dance too even though none of us really know how to dance.
The other day they played ‘aye mackarenna’.
Sayan did his ‘zaheer bum movement’ waala dance.
And khushboo did the ‘woohoo’ waala dance.
And jo did the ‘kindof breakdance’…

“bloody hell dude I can actually do this one step that is kindof like breakdance! seee.”

*danceswithhermouthopen*

Me: :I

*mouthshuts*

“just nod.”

And I did the robo-cum-nerd dance.
And manish did the pelvic thrust.
And ameya did the ‘sunny deol muscle’ thing.
I figured that it was the happiest part of my day.

I hope chibber does his seductress belly dancing one day.



11) chibber reminds me.
Chibber who is the most ‘bootylicious’ guy I have ever seen,
Apart from being the most ‘curvy’,
He is the BIGGEST guy I have ever come across.
Bigger than anirudh urs.

HE KICKED JO.

Jo kicked him back but hurt her leg instead.

“chibby you gay ass, kick someone your own size okay.”
Soumya: *starts shouting something *

Chibber : “ OKAY CHILL.”

Soumya : “BUTI’MNOTCHILLINGNA.”

*pauses*

“what did I just say?”

It was a blast.
Had I died that night I would have missed this.



12) dad got us some chocolate brownies yesterday.
And they were awesome.
:D
I mean whatever happens,chocolate brownies are always there man.



13) soumya is getting owen ka jersey.yay!
Haha im happy for her.
I want to see her wearing it.we all happy happy.



14)all said and done,the truth is the reason I am still alive is because I kindof figured I don’t want to.
I still have hope.






Balls.
:D




When the violence causes silence we must be mistaken.
Then you see.
Its not me.
Its not my.family.
In your head.in your head.they are fighting.