Tonight.

A memory.


I was sitting on the wooden cupboard with my back to the felt board.I and Jo.
Jo was in her usual sulky mood and she threw something.I can't remember what that was.
I was unusually happy.
I spoke with a childish twang,the way I do when I am this happy.
I was talking.
There were around eight of us.
I said something and laughed.

RR cracked a sad PJ.
It really was sad.
But I laughed.
Y'know how sometimes a joke is so not funny and you laugh for no reason?
I laughed.
I said something.
I faltered in the middle.

RR turned to me and said,"Learn how to talk faster.Fasterrrrr."
And I laughed again.

Its funny how such a random,vague memory is the only one that strikes me now.

RR died yesterday.
In an accident,on his way from Lonavla.
I wasn't close to him.
And we hardly spoke.
Except when we were with common friends.
He used to tease me for being short and I teased him for his chest hair.

This feeling is so funny.
I'm wondering whether I'm devoid of any empathy.
To think that he is no more.
To think that I'm not weeping madly.
It's creepy when people write 'Rest in peace' on his wall on facebook.
I check his wall every fifteen minutes.
I've backspaced my RIP wallpost around three times.
I freaked out reading his last status message,from Lonavla.
Using facebook mobile.
I'm wondering whether or not to go for his condolence meet.

In all this,I think there is only one think I can be sure of.
People never fade out.
You remember them each time you buy a burger.Each time you see someone with light coloured eyes.
'Cat eyes' as we call them.I and Ness.
RR had cat eyes.
A person becomes immortal by his memories.
What he leaves behind with others.
Even conversations like these.


So even though I haven't been a good friend of your's,RR,from tonight I will try to talk as fast as I can.
And even though it sounds cheesy,rest in peace.
: )





RR.
(August 1992-July 2010)